Part 1 – Failing
“This is your year, Kar!”
Many people have been saying that to me.
Yes, I was recently selected as 1 of 5 people who will represent Indonesia in the Future Leaders Connect (FLC) program by the British Council. I’m in the Top 5 of over 2700 applicants. I will travel to the UK at the end of October for 10 days, absolutely free. This is insane.
In February, I auditioned and got a lead role in a short play. We performed in May, during the riots in Jakarta. Joko Anwar and Hannah Al Rashid was in the audience on Opening Night. They were impressed. What even is life?
Not too long ago, I sang and danced with Paragita, The University of Indonesia’s Student Choir, as an alumnus in our 35th anniversary concert at Teater Jakarta. The biggest, most elaborate concert Paragita has ever performed. It was so fun!
KALM, an online counseling platform I developed with my partners, will turn one in October. We have over 10 thousand followers on Instagram (@get.kalm). We can now tell you to Swipe Up on Insta Story. Yay!
So. Much. Win.
“This is your year, Kar!” Many people have been saying that to me.
I usually just smile in response. I kind of agree, but hearing that makes me want to explain all the “failures” I experienced this year. So no one will think that my life is all rainbows and sunshine. I don’t post all aspects of my life on Instagram.
Failure #1: Before applying for FLC, I applied to a similar leadership and policy-making program called TRANSFORM, hosted by The University of Melbourne, Australia. The difference is that this program is only for Indonesians; they send between 10-20 people to Melbourne. I applied, wrote 10 mini essays about myself and the same policy I proposed for FLC: Mental Health Education. Went on to the interview stage. The interviewer said, they usually select applicants who are older, but my application impressed them. The interview went well. I still have my Australian Visa, too. But I didn’t get picked.
Failure #2: After the euphoria of being praised by prominent people in the Indonesian movie industry, I of course wanted to perform on stage again. So I auditioned for a part in a broadway musical adapted by an Indonesian theater company. I auditioned for 1 complicated role, got called back for 3 roles. Prepared for about three weeks so I can perform well, went to auditions back and forth, but I did not end up getting any role.
Just two? This is only September. There’s still time and space for a few more failures. Who knows?
So Much Failures, Too…
I failed a couple of times this year. But for some reason (perhaps only my psychologist knows), I finally am not ashamed of my failures. I usually only share when I will definitely succeed. I am also not ashamed about telling people about events or projects that might end in failure. I openly ask to be prayed for. Why am I not ashamed anymore? Because we learn more from failure, guys. Life is all good when we are successful. I feel that others will be able to learn from my failures… and effort deserves to be appreciated, not just the final result.
Based on the general criteria of success, I won a lot this year. Praise the Lord. I am extremely grateful. But I would not be who I am today without all the failures in my life. So I, too, am grateful for the failures God let me experience. At this stage of my life, I honestly don’t wish I could change some things. Every failure and heartbreak led me here. It’s not perfect, but my life is wonderful as is.
FYI, I will try to apply for the TRANSFORM program again next year if I don’t miss the deadline. And if I come across a play or musical that interests me, I will audition for it.
Now let me end this thing. Many people have also asked, how do I become successful like you?
Put yourself in situations where you might fail. You will not grow if you only take opportunities where you will certainly succeed. Failure is precious experience.
And keep improving your English! Mine has opened many amazing doors.